Vow to myself to update most of the time because end of this year at least i can browse through what i do in this whole year! Basically, i'm still happy with what i am planning to achieve the on going process. Thanks to the dearest loving boyfiee for the support.

Anyway a to do list for this week!
1. Sleep early
2. Fruit Juice in the morning which mean healthy breakfast
3. More selfcam practice. Need to learn to smile correctly.

♥ 8:39 AM

I have a passion that has buried long in my heart, however, it always has to be switch off due to lack of confidence and etc. Well, at this time 2011 I'm not going to let myself going rid of it. This time i'm going to make it something and big. Not just merely a talk or rambling but is a passion in me. Before my birthday strike this year 21st,the passion must be something. The ambition is the one that i'm working for it. Well i will see what i can do now because the time is not going to wait for me. Yea! Here i come!!

♥ 7:53 AM

I am really thankful that you are willing to travel all the way to my house just to see me. You are so nice to bring me out to my favourite mall. You are so sweet to bring me out for some outing weekend. You are awesome that you always waited for my class to end. You are lovely to see me even early in the morning. You are great to bring me out for some awesome meals. You are wonderful because you can really communicate well with my family. You are amazing to drive me everywhere. You are fantastic to call me when I’m feeling down. You are the best when you surprised me with movie tickets.

You said you will love me even more day by day. You will care every single of me. You will treasure me even more day by day. You will hold my hand gapless to solve any problem with me. You will only see me in this world. You will only make me smile every day. You will be there for me every time I needed. You will be the sunshine for me. You will LOVE me more and more every day.

You are never the same anymore.

You never concern me like how you used to. You never treasure me like how you used to. You never care what I talk like how you used to. It really hurts me when I try to tell you things and you tell me that you are tired and stress to give any opinion or care. You don’t even know when I’m really down. You don’t even care or know even when I am crying. You always say I turn away when we argue. You say my love to you is only at the constant level. You never listen to what’s in my heart. You always think that I am being too secretive. You never understand me like how you used to. You never be patience to me like how you used to.

But in reality, you did stop me from telling you things. You always tell me what you feel but I’m never given a real chance to tell you things. You used to call me when I’m sad but now you did not even bother about me. When there is time that I wanted to talk, ended up you will be the one judging all my negatives side. You said if I can’t get committed we shall just end things up. You yelled at me when I can’t get things right. You never look at me like how you used to anymore. You said you shall not get too committed since I am not. You stop calling me when I am down.
Indeed, I’m really hurt. I remembered every single thing you said. You told me you are ready to accept me in your life. But why do you have to tell me that you don’t want to get any more committed?
Why do you have to turn me down?

I'm really sorry. I didn't want to ruin our day tomorrow. But it really got me thinking alot lately.

♥ 11:27 PM

Can anyone tell me the way to wrap all my disappointment, anger, exhausted and lost to an enormous ball so that I can kick it all to the moon and not come back to me anymore? Can I have a ride that faster than speed light so I can go to other planet and scream my lungs out? Can I have a place for me to bury all my sorrows and completely lost memory on it?

♥ 8:00 AM

Out of the blue, I’m having some urge in mind. I’m actually having the thought of 98765 to do list for upcoming 2 months but I will just start from the most basic things. As the usual me having shorten memory most of the time, I shall just keep all the lists here in a way that I could keep tracking on from time to time. The best is to begin from the mundane stuff to the not-so-easy tasks so that I could have little motivation to complete the lists. Pray hardly that I wouldn’t give up half way!

I. College equipment.
II. Body check-up for my yellow skin problem.
III. Nerd glasses due to increase of eye’s power.
IV. Jog or swim to keep fit!
V. Save at least 50% of my pay in the bank.

Oh,obviously all these to-do-list might just be as easy as ABC tasks to certain people out there, but to me it is definitely not because I’m too use to be ignorant and forget about all the simple things.

Nights peeps!

Maril

♥ 7:49 AM

Determination of working throughout the year of 2010 is really something challenging to me as I have to really cope with the surrounding such as college studies and the annoying assignment! The boy, wise man and woman don’t really like the idea of me working as they claimed that I might get exhausted due to the lacking of rest as I’m infamous of sleeping more than 12 hours a day. Frankly speaking, if there is no increment for my pay, I might consider other job or stop working which mean I’m a step away from my resolution. Working as a teacher is fun because of the little kids that are so pure and angelic. The little kids are the only motivation for me to survive there because basically the environment there is like stuck between the four walls with books-words and sentences = (+) knowledge; (-) boring. Maybe one day I should really take pictures of the environment and little kids to post here.

Supposing, I should blog about the sneak peek about Valentine’s Day with the boy. However, it has been such a long hiatus of a month to be least. But, I had already promised the boy to blog about it so I guess I have to do it even though I’m feeling really lazy now. That day was really memorable day as I was really treated like princess, the boy brought me roses and to my favourite venue-The curve. I really appreciate it and thanks for loving me so much! And I do love him too!

Anyhow, a picture says thousand words which mean shortcut post. LOL!

His signature smile!

Have a great day folks!

Maril

♥ 10:04 AM

Double click on the image to enlarge it!

A little sneak peek on what I'm going to blog soon. Promised the boyfiee that I'm going to blog something as he claimed that my blog is so DEAD! LOL.

Well peeps, Happy Chinese New Year! Have a blast year ahead!

♥ 8:47 AM